I am unemployed...at least for the time being. I don't enjoy being broke, but hey at least I am good at something. :)
Actually I just got hired working for a large banking company. Yeah, banks are failing left and right and I choose to work for one. I guess that could be incredibly smart...or really stupid. I actually would like to get a job with an health insurance company...yeah for better hours.
I am so sick of the campaigning. I am way too caught up in all the hubub. I know who I am voting for, and I know the reasons why. I sometimes find it fascinating the people decide who they will vote for, but have no understanding of any of the policies.
Church, do people really think it was meant to be a building with a steeple?
I can't wait to see what tomorrow holds. Probably a two by four waiting to whack me in the head......:)
Monday, October 20, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
Slipping
I am slowly slipping down a rocky terrain trying to get my footing and yet I keep slipping, sliding further and further. I was told yesterday that my services would not longer be needed. That's right, I am expendable. Now, don't misunderstand me. I am not upset about the job itself. I actually didn't really enjoy it. And, I interviewed for another job yesterday that I feel confident I will be offered. The job is not the problem.
What is next is the problem. Why can't I figure out what is next for me. Why can't I be one of those people that always dreamed of being a teacher, doctor, lawyer, mom, recreation specialist...whatever. Why don't I have a goal or a dream or a desire for something specific in my life. I think I am afraid of failing, so I don't do anything. I think I am afraid of disappointing, so I set the expectations so low I can't be a disappointment.
God, help me to see the potential you built into me, or else I will find myself at the bottom of a very rocky terrain with no way out.
What is next is the problem. Why can't I figure out what is next for me. Why can't I be one of those people that always dreamed of being a teacher, doctor, lawyer, mom, recreation specialist...whatever. Why don't I have a goal or a dream or a desire for something specific in my life. I think I am afraid of failing, so I don't do anything. I think I am afraid of disappointing, so I set the expectations so low I can't be a disappointment.
God, help me to see the potential you built into me, or else I will find myself at the bottom of a very rocky terrain with no way out.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
It's Raining
It's a rainy day. I love it. The rain seems so refreshing to me. The earth is replenished and somehow so am I. I really do love the rain.
Last night was my church's regular Tuesday Night Bible Study. (I know really creative.) This one was a little unusual for me though. I was teaching it. Steve was out of town, so he asked me to fill in. I read Acts 23 several times and was a little uncertain what to do with it. I mean Paul started yet another riot and was held by the Romans. But one verse stuck out to me, verse 11, it was amazing. Jesus STOOD near Paul in one of his darkest moments. Paul had failed to reach the Jews as he desired. He was sitting essentially in prison and Jesus STOOD near him. He told Paul to "Be of good cheer, as you have testified in Jerusalem, so you will testify in Rome!"
Just the encouragement Paul needed. Paul had failed by his own standard, but Jesus didn't call him a failure. Paul's failure wasn't a fail in God's eyes. Paul's willingness to testify about Him was a success. The results are not what God was looking at, it was Paul's heart. The results were God's responsibility, not Paul's. And if that weren't enough, Jesus said get ready you are going to Rome. (Romans 1:9-12, this was a huge desire of Paul). Paul had encouragement and a promise from God to cling to. He had an appointment waiting for him.
If you finish out the chapter, Paul is escorted out of Jerusalem by 470 soldiers, and his is mounted among the Calvary. He is taken into the custody of Governor Felix and is held is Herod's PALACE! Amazing, Paul goes from his darkest night to a Palace! The Lord does work in mysterious ways.
Wherever you find your self, God is waiting to meet you there (like Paul in prison). He is not looking to berate you for your failures, but encourage you with His promises. Don't listen to your accuser, as he belittles you into believing yourself a failure. God is waiting with an army to fight off the accuser and take you to your next appointment.
Yes it is raining!
Last night was my church's regular Tuesday Night Bible Study. (I know really creative.) This one was a little unusual for me though. I was teaching it. Steve was out of town, so he asked me to fill in. I read Acts 23 several times and was a little uncertain what to do with it. I mean Paul started yet another riot and was held by the Romans. But one verse stuck out to me, verse 11, it was amazing. Jesus STOOD near Paul in one of his darkest moments. Paul had failed to reach the Jews as he desired. He was sitting essentially in prison and Jesus STOOD near him. He told Paul to "Be of good cheer, as you have testified in Jerusalem, so you will testify in Rome!"
Just the encouragement Paul needed. Paul had failed by his own standard, but Jesus didn't call him a failure. Paul's failure wasn't a fail in God's eyes. Paul's willingness to testify about Him was a success. The results are not what God was looking at, it was Paul's heart. The results were God's responsibility, not Paul's. And if that weren't enough, Jesus said get ready you are going to Rome. (Romans 1:9-12, this was a huge desire of Paul). Paul had encouragement and a promise from God to cling to. He had an appointment waiting for him.
If you finish out the chapter, Paul is escorted out of Jerusalem by 470 soldiers, and his is mounted among the Calvary. He is taken into the custody of Governor Felix and is held is Herod's PALACE! Amazing, Paul goes from his darkest night to a Palace! The Lord does work in mysterious ways.
Wherever you find your self, God is waiting to meet you there (like Paul in prison). He is not looking to berate you for your failures, but encourage you with His promises. Don't listen to your accuser, as he belittles you into believing yourself a failure. God is waiting with an army to fight off the accuser and take you to your next appointment.
Yes it is raining!
What a Day!
Carter Anthony Callaway!
My new little man, my precious baby nephew, I am so excited to welcome you into the world. You are so small and fragile now, but it won't be too long before you are a young man towering over your crazy Aunt Betsy. I pray God will protect you as you grow. I pray that you become an example of a godly man. I pray that you are annointed with a special blessing from God. I know He is going to use you in a mighty way. Surrender your life to Him and allow His Spirit to guide you. I pray for your future wife. A little girl who may not even be born yet, but one who God has picked out for you. Yes, my precious baby nephew, someday you will be a man, and I pray it is one walking in His ways. Amen!
My new little man, my precious baby nephew, I am so excited to welcome you into the world. You are so small and fragile now, but it won't be too long before you are a young man towering over your crazy Aunt Betsy. I pray God will protect you as you grow. I pray that you become an example of a godly man. I pray that you are annointed with a special blessing from God. I know He is going to use you in a mighty way. Surrender your life to Him and allow His Spirit to guide you. I pray for your future wife. A little girl who may not even be born yet, but one who God has picked out for you. Yes, my precious baby nephew, someday you will be a man, and I pray it is one walking in His ways. Amen!
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