I am slowly slipping down a rocky terrain trying to get my footing and yet I keep slipping, sliding further and further. I was told yesterday that my services would not longer be needed. That's right, I am expendable. Now, don't misunderstand me. I am not upset about the job itself. I actually didn't really enjoy it. And, I interviewed for another job yesterday that I feel confident I will be offered. The job is not the problem.
What is next is the problem. Why can't I figure out what is next for me. Why can't I be one of those people that always dreamed of being a teacher, doctor, lawyer, mom, recreation specialist...whatever. Why don't I have a goal or a dream or a desire for something specific in my life. I think I am afraid of failing, so I don't do anything. I think I am afraid of disappointing, so I set the expectations so low I can't be a disappointment.
God, help me to see the potential you built into me, or else I will find myself at the bottom of a very rocky terrain with no way out.
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